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Filled to the Brim

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Filled to the brim

Always I'm filled with skepticism 
Having faith
I never got it
Does that damn me
Did I do this
I am to blame
But is he too
Is this coincidence 
Or a higher misfortune
Maybe I'm scapegoating
Laying blame to a manertink
Always I'm sad inside
He never helped me
Tell me what I did
Why can't you just crush me
Not everyone one around me
Hates themselves because of me
Always I'm filled with contempt 
How could you do this
You arn't even real 
Still somehow you hurt me
I'm not living for your sake
Leave me to my devices
I'm filled with desperation 
Please help them
Leave me
I don't want this
I'm so confused
I've been so confused
For the longest time
Why can't you help them
I'm filled with self loathing
If I admit you're fraud
The spotlight is shown brightly
Standing front stage is me
But did I really do this
Could I really do this
My audience cheers me on
But I see thier eyes screaming
The gallery is ablaze
With tinder I helped carry
I'm filled with nothing
I fall face first into cotton
Tears dampen the sheets
What can I do now
I can only sit here and beg
That maybe if I suffer more
They won't have to
I cant help but think maybe if I was able to suffer a bit more I could help those who suffer because of me. But deep down I know I'll never change. I'm a selfish bastard at my very core. I can only wonder what could change that.
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